To three or not to three, that is the question.....?

We are currently in discussions about having a 3rd baby.....do we or don't we?!  I just want someone to tell me yes or no!!!  I have always envisaged having 4 children..then when I had my first daughter, I got Hyperemesis Gravidarum and seriously questioned whether I could go through it again for a second baby, let alone three more!  After 2 years we decided we definitely wanted another child and that for some sufferers of hypermesis it did not occur in subsequent pregnancies.  So after 8 months of trying, I got pregnant with Lily and by 6 weeks I was bedridden and 9 weeks I was in hospital on a drip and then on anti-emetics usually used for cancer patients for the rest of my pregnancy.  Those were some of my darkest days and the thoughts that went through my head in the early weeks I never want to re-visit.  I vowed never to have any more children..and we were happy with the thought that our family would consist of the two of us and our two beautiful daughters!

But....

Now, as Lily approaches 18 months, we are starting to wonder whether we could have "just one more".  In all honesty it is more me than Mr David..but I think that is my maternal side shining through!  Mr David doesn't want me to suffer again (neither do I!!) but the way I see it..okay it is pure hell for most of the nine months, but now after all of that it is SOOO worth it - to have another Avie/Lily would be totally worth everything I would go through!  Anyone reading this who has gone through hyperemesis will be able to relate to the anxiety and worry that surrounds contemplating another pregnancy.  But also the reality that once you have the baby, all of it is forgotten (kind of!) and you then have this amazing person that you have fought to carry for nine months for the rest of your life!

But there are also other considerations..having another baby would mean less attention for the two I already have, less money for the thing's they need etc...treats, holidays and later on, university fees and first cars etc would be harder to afford.  BUT having another sibling to grow up with and make memories with would surely outweigh all of that, wouldn't it?  We have so much more love to give and I don't want to ever regret not opening up our family for more love!

How could we not have another one..we do make beautiful babies!!

Avie, a few weeks old!

Lily, a few weeks old

My babies..

Check back for the answer!!!  Decisions decisions!!!  Also any words of encouragment or discouragement would be most welcome!!!